Am I right to be angry at my girlfriend for this?

Why are you letting her walk all over you?

I have just got home from a night of waiting around and I am feeling very insulted right now. My girlfriend has been kind of avoiding me lately, for no apparent reason at all. I have seen her once in the past 2 weeks, and she stayed at mine and assured me that she loves me and wants the best for us. She told me this morning that she wanted to stay at mine tonight and spend time with me, and so we planned that we would meet each other at 5pm after my last lecture. She has said this a number of times recently before finding a reason not to come, but today she promised me that she would meet me at 5 and spend the evening together.

At 5pm, I messaged her to say that I had finished uni. However, whereas we were supposed to meet at the campus café, she instead told me that she was at the Waitrose near her house and that I should come there to meet her. This is about a 30 minute walk from campus and on arrival I started looking around for her in store but couldn't find her. I connected to the store wifi and she had sent me a message saying that she was feeling tired and had gone home for a nap. She refused that I should come and see her and told me to wait there for a little while. An hour and a half later, she sent me another message telling me that a couple of her housemates had just invited her to the local pub for dinner, and that she "Couldn't turn them down". I was frustrated and angry but at the same time just wanted to spend time with her, so I told her I would wait and then meet her, to which she didn't reply. The pub is right by the Waitrose and I saw the car go by a little later with her and her housemates in. I sat around for another hour and a half waiting to meet her, only to see the car go past again with her in it, and then when she got home she told me she was tired and wanted to go to bed, and then told me that I was too attached to her if I stood waiting all that time.

The truth is, yes...I am too attached to her. I don't know why I love this girl. She is beautiful, the first year of our relationship was the best year of my life and we shared a very tight and loving bond. However, she has done things like this many times before and she is what I would regard as a psychopath. She has no empathy, is narcissistic, causes drama and in general I feel like she is a succubus sucking the life out of me, but I am hopelessly in love with her. I don't know what to do...I feel so depressed being with her but at the same time being in her company is the only thing that brings me happiness. I feel so emotionally tortured but I can't contemplate the horrible thought of living without her, as she is everything to me. It's a very unhealthy relationship and the reality of it is that she is a terrible partner but I am sucked in.

Tonight was a classic example of her attitude and I am reaching the end of my tether. I actually felt suicidal after I realised I would not see her tonight and probably not at all for a while. I feel so unvalued, and like she is messing me around on purpose to hurt me.

It's a very unhealthy relationship and the reality of it is that she is a terrible partner but I am sucked in.

Tonight was a classic example of her attitude and I am reaching the end of my tether. I actually felt suicidal after I realised I would not see her tonight and probably not at all for a while. I feel so unvalued, and like she is messing me around on purpose to hurt me.

I'm glad you can see how unhealthy this is. Sounds like you've become too clingy and needy for her and now she's just finding ways to avoid spending time with you. You also shouldn't be this obsessed with her yet, it sounds like you don't have much else going on in your life. Perhaps you've put other things on the back burner and you've prioritised her too much. And she is right you should not have spent so much time waiting around for her. Take the hint man.
She didn't turn up, she blew you off, she didn't reply to your messages because she didn't want you there. And you just stood around waiting for her. I do feel sorry for you though because it sounds like she's being immature, manipulative and taking advantage of you. A relationship should not be this unhealthy. You should not be thinking your gf is a psychopath and your gf should not be blowing you off like this.
I'd suggest leave while you can. Break up with her and give her the shock that she needs. I bet she thinks you'll never dump her which is why she takes this piss out of you by walking all over you. You need some time to be single and learn to love your life being single. Spend more time with friends and focus on yourself. Trust me, there are plenty of other girls out there who will appreciate you much more and will be on the same page as you. She may be beautiful and lovely but this relationship does not sound like it's going to last at this rate.

I am really scared of dumping her. Firstly, she is a psycho and I know she will try and get some revenge on me...nothing violent but she would try to harm me emotionally by showing herself off with other guys or something which I know I wont be able to take. I also feel like I have invested every piece of me into her and she has become the only reason I live...If I suddenly lose her I have nothing. My self esteem, confidence and happiness has declined dramatically over the past year and I am a shell of a person and at the weakest point in my life. I literally thin I would end up killing myself if I lose her. I know this all sounds so pathetic, I realise that and want to change the situation.

Damn, she is like a cancer...she infected me with her love and then spread to control me and eat away at me.

This is concerning and is even more of a reason for you to end things with her before she can manipulate you any further. One of my mates is in a really toxic relationship but every time he says he wants to break up she tells him she's going to commit suicide. Another mate was in a f*cked up relationship, ended up cheating (to get himself out of the relationship), his gf wouldn't let him and also continuously threatened to commit suicide. Eventually he became really suicidal as well and was very close to killing himself. All because of a girl. He's fine now though and i'm so glad he's now able to look back at it from a different angle and see how messed up everything was.
I don't want you to get like that. This relationship sounds really bad if you're this invested and she isn't at all. It's just going to escalate. At least suggest taking a break and see where things go. Whenever you go through a break up it's always hard and you will miss them and question whether you made the right decision. But after a few months, you'll realise how much better your life is without all the stress they bring. She is not worth messing up your own self esteem and confidence. Being in a relationship should have the opposite effect. You should not be feeling this awful all the time.
Please just be strong and at least take a break. She is not that great. If she was then you wouldn't be in this position.

I just sent her a message basically telling her that I need a break from her, and then I blocked her account and number. I don't know if I have made the right decision or just causing myself more pain as now I am going to be pining for her but I need to be strong. Is there any advice for this?

I just sent her a message basically telling her that I need a break from her, and then I blocked her account and number. I don't know if I have made the right decision or just causing myself more pain as now I am going to be pining for her but I need to be strong. Is there any advice for this?