Im not sure yet, but i do feel like he is cheating on me. I just got home so tired from work and this is what i saw when i got home.
*We're on LDR, we lived together for 8months, but LDR for like 1 year, and next month is almost our 2 years of being together eventhough its an ON and OFF relationshop. i came back here in my hometown because him and his family made me go back here. He dumped me on christmas day and since then we've been broken up for 8 mnths, although he tried contacting me before around feb. and told me he can't live w/out me etc.etc But now, i don't know if we are still together..
heres the thing:
--he hasn't call/text me since last week!
--He told me he will never leave me ever again, told me he's saving up money to see me, told me he's going to work so hard so we can move in again together next year, told me he will never ever cheat on me.
-We can't just ignore each other, we both have some bills to pay for, but knowing that he hasn't called since last week is really bothering me. I can't pay all of the bills! I need his help, but he's not helping me, he said he will, but he hasn't done anything.
--I came home today from work, went on fb, *btw were not friends on fb because he told me we can't let his family know that we are back together, until he moves out and he take me to move in with him next year (But im friends with some of his friends on my fb. So i saw a profile of one of his friends, and then saw him on the friends list, and i clicked on it, his profile is on private so i can only see the profile photos, i clicked on the profile photos and saw this girl who likes his picture, and i clicked on her profile, i saw only her friends list, i saw a profile of one girl on the friends list, i clicked on it and i saw her and my bf together in the profile picture, i only saw the one photo! They are together in the picture. As soon as i saw the photo, i turned like a jello, i felt shaky, nervous, heart palpitation is fast, i feel like crying out so loud, i was sweating cold and i feel like sick on my stomach!
I can't stop crying so much! Im not sure if they are together or not, but i know he used to like that girl before me when they were in HS, he told me before that he can't believe that he liked her! But why the **** are they together in the profile photo of that girl? Im so upset!I don't know what to do!I can't stop thinking about this!!I know im gonna be suicidal again!He promised me a lot of things, and this is what happens? (by the way the profile is nothing like kissing, its just them together, but doesn't people put a profile picutre together with someone, when its special?I dont know. Im just really heartbroken/sad/depressed right now.
He proposed to me last year, we gave each other a ring. (if that really matters. im just saying)
All i am looking forward now is going to uni over there.
We have been through a lot of problems that only a husband/wife can go through, and he's just leaving me again like this?
Sorry for the long post guys, i just feel terrible. I just made a thread the other day about the cheating and stuff and i can't believe what i was thinking was right!I didn't expect this to happen to me!We were each others first!