I'm slow around people but when I'm pulled up on it it's started to upset/anger me.

Sick of being criticised by people because I don't always think straight. I tend to forget stuff easily and can get get confused it's worse when I'm around people. Like I was on a placement as a student nurse and answering phones makes me a bit nervous but I knew I had to get over it so I volunteered for phone duty. Told myself that it's just fear and that I'd be fine. I got a phone call from a woman from some financial team asking for a gp number. I was polite and said hold on why I looked on the computor. By the time I'd checked I forgot what she wanted so asked again she said 'I've already told you I'd like the number for the gp of 'such a body'. I'd forgotten how to get to it so told her to hold on while I asked for help. They told me to put her through to admin but I wasn't sure how to put through calls on that phone no one had told me so I asked someone for the number to give her which is what I did. I said sorry in a quiet voice lol and tried to be polite. The woman on the phone said 'you should be putting me through really, very unprofessional'. She didn't report me but told my mentor that I'd left the phone off the hook, grunted and was unprofessional. I passed the training but haven't worked as a nurse I know I'd just struggle with all the multitasking and quick thinking required. I'm fine with academic assignments where I can work on my own and have time to think but I struggle with things if I can't plan them first.

I've given up on being a nurse I wouldn't enjoy it anyway so Im starting another career which will require me to think quickly in parts but it's what I've always wanted to do (occupational therapy). A woman who I do sports with asked how my nursing was going and I told her she then said 'I'm not being funny but if I went on a ward and you were in it I'd just turn round and walk out' She was serious as she also told people not to ask me about blood pressure (they were going to) as I wouldn't know. It really annoyed me but with me being very quietly and not assertive I didn't say anything to her.

I don't know why I'm like this though, I've always been an introvert and enjoy mostly my own company I find it hard to concentrate on general chit chat as it doesn't interest me. My boyfriend annoys me when he says I don't think clearly, that I'm brain dead and that it's like talking to a brick wall. I try to concentrate but sometimes when he is talking I lose interest and my mind starts wandering, I'm just no good at socialising. Like today he sent a text saying that he couldn't go to the gym with me as he was busy. He has a sore shoulder so I asked him when his appointment was I said did you have it today or was it on Friday and he just replied with this.

'I dont know what 2say, l told u a few times yesterday it was 2day. I even told u again when l gave u the £50 I owed you. YES l did c the doc this morning about my shoulder, had an x/ray & l will get an appointment date 4 a scan in 2wks x

I have now got this kind of reputation with him where I'm dopy/forgetful even though he forgets things and I don't make a big deal of it. He said that I should see a psychiatrist and that he thinks I need to see one any way due to low sex drive. I'm happy within myself though I just like being on my own and function better alone for some reason. I guess it's selfishness but I'm only interested in things that concern my life rather than chit chat. I was interested in helping get my boyfriends shoulder right I care about him but when he starts going on about my dopyness I just think **** off. It's like the more I try to interact with people the more I show myself up.