Craving love

Shawty hmu I can fix you

Idk why but yesterday I genuinely broke down into tears for hours because I miss the feeling of being loved. I used to be by this boy, but he’s not a part of my life anymore. And what’s not helping is that to pass my time, I watch Netflix series such as Bridgerton - which probably isn’t the best for someone who’s mentally unstable like me- and I just getting a feeling of emptiness. I know I’m only 17, and I’m trying SO immensely hard to focus on my alevels right now, but this is just always at the back of my mind. It’s weird because I know I don’t want to find a real lover until university, so I don’t understand why I’ve got this feeling of emptiness now.
I literally don’t want a relationship now or next year.
Why am I feeling like this?
All this time, I’ve wondered to myself: why am I doing all this hard work at school? And I feel like I made myself believe that I was solely doing it for money. But recently, I’ve come to realisation that that is partially not true. I’m also doing it for love. Because for some reason I feel like I’ll have more accessibility to love if I work harder in life, so that I can be happy in both the aspects of wealth and love.

Honestly I can’t comprehend why I feel so empty and lost. Idk if it’s also partially to do with my birthday being tomorrow and I always feel like this on my birthday idk why. My birthday makes me emotional, and I feel like I really want that boy ( that I mentioned earlier) to wish me a happy birthday because I miss him immensely

Hey! First of all I want to wish you a MASSIVE happy birthday!!

Secondly, this feeling of wanting to feel loved is actually so lonely and I understand how it makes you feel. I think maybe try displacing this feeling of wanting to feel loved by a guy and instead focus on the wonderful people that are already around you. Love can come In various ways and it would be very comforting to discover this. You have you wonderful parents who unconditionally love you and watched you lay in their arms and grow up to become stronger and independent, you have your amazing friends that no boy could ever compete with. Spend time with them and show affection and genuinely you'll feel much more happier. Most importantly of all you need to love yourself, treat yourself to a nice meal , get yourself flowers and do activities that you like!

Love comes when least expected , we can never put a time-stamp on when it'd come but remember it will come! And they will love you for YOU, you should never change just for them! Until then use education to not seem appealing but use it for its sole purpose.. to learn, to learn about yourself, see what intrigues you. Education will open up new pathways for your future but what's even more important is looking after yourself! I hope you found this advice well!

Happy birthday again for tomorrow!

That I think is the problem with today's society and has been since University education was massively expanded in the 1990s. People are being led/leading themselves to believe that University will do something for them. For most, probably over 90 percent of people a lot of those beliefs turn out to be entirely unfounded. I'm not saying University doesn't have it's interesting side or won't do anything but for most it can turn out to be vastly oversold. It is very unlikely to be transformative to your life or many others. There's so many people going to Uni and has been over the last three decades that unless you're doing something most struggle with like a heavy Maths based course it won't make much of a difference career wise. It really is just three more years of study for little benefit unless you are just interested in the subject hobby wise.

Relationships at Uni vary, it's much the same as in High School, the popular crowd get it in and the rest generally don't they just study. A few that aren't so popular may get into a relationship but they are few and far between in my opinion. Study takes a lot of time away from being able to have a relationship. Time over I wished I tried a job in a Supermarket first full time. Somewhere where there are a lot of the opposite sex of a similar age, particularly on Saturday's and probably before A'levels so as to not end up on the conveyer belt to Uni so early. That way I could have the time available to date girls at work without much/all of my free time being used up by studies. In life you don't really get to do over so getting too bogged down in studies by being led to believe that it would do great things for me has been not good for me I think. As a teenager though it was all relatively new and education seemed to offer that to those that wanted to bother and while it seemed to make sense it ended up all too good to be true really.

Thanks man, I really appreciate it
It makes me feel a lot better knowing that you’ve also felt like this. It’s so aggravating icl, I miss him so much. But I’ll just focus on my alevel mocks for now. Hopefully things will get better soon
i hope all is going well for you too xx