Sometimes it might feel like there’s a lot more hindrance than there really is. Completely different scenario but it may help ease you: when I found out I was pregnant i was distressed and felt I had to get rid of it because my family would kill and disown me based on what they want for my life. I got rid of it, and it was when my mum (somehow mysteriously) went through the bag i had in my room with the pregnancy bits i couldn’t yet part with that she approached me and wishes i told her about it as she could’ve been there to support me whatever i chose. Sometimes the outcomes are not what we expect as parents often want the best for their kids, although what’s best in their eyes isn’t always what we want. Even when it seems terrifying to go against their morale, they may try to guide you in a certain direction but they won’t necessarily kill you over it.