Liked a girl I know for a 2 months now. I'm 20 and a virgin.
During the start of freshers we fooled around a lot and didn't have sex on two occassions because I had no condom. A short while later she says we should be friends. I then tried my best to get over her but it was very hard. Suddenly one night at a club we just started kissing each other again. And then after a talk she said she didn't mean what she sai dand that we should give things a go . i.e not see other people (but didnt say we were bf/gf).
Now that she said that there is a potential relationship developing I now feel that I'm acting differently towards her and just dont want to **** up.
I went out on Monday for my schools mates bday and text her at the club saying it was boring and wished she was here (me drunk) she sent a text backing saying that I should come back now and she'd leave her room door open. I came back home and entered her room, kissed her for ages and then slept in her bed. When I think back I dunno if she wanted more or what? I've lost a lot of the freshers confidence around her especially as she rejected me before and so I act awkwardly.
For example I was chilling with her last night then left her room. Then I went back in to give her a hug then as I left I said, what? No goodnight kiss. She laughed akwardly but said she didn't know what to say. I know I should have gone in for the kiss when I hugged her but as I said this is my first ever potential relationship and so I'm really inexperience.
Tomorrow is the bday of our mutual friend and I want to drink but not too much incase she thinks we should have sex. I'm so confused and awkward dammit ;_;