We’ve been best-friends for 5 years, since year 8. It has been an amazing 5 years of my life filled with great memories, however there have been many bad moments. My best friend suffered from depression for many years, when she was very close to committing suicide, which I helped her through out these years, however ever since she’s better (a year) I feel like she doesn’t need me anymore nor wants me in her life unless she has problems. She did some horrible stuff to me through the years but I always forgave her as I was scared she’ll harm herself again. I keep forgiving her and she always says sorry and that she tries to change for me but Today she hurt me again. She chose boys over me , when we had plans, she left me out and told me she couldn’t be arsed going but then went out with other boys, posting photos on Snapchat I felt horrible. This not the first find this happened probably not the last time. Also she did worse things than that and I have trust issues when it comes to her. She changed me as a person I’m sad most of the times, closed myself from other people and generally hate myself. Unfortunately it has been the worst year for us. She changed, she chooses other people over me, doesn’t include me in her life, and keeps me away from her other friends. She told many times that she’s jealous and insecure near me but I comforted her that she’s just as pretty and better than me.We are so close together I couldn’t imagine my life without her but I’m so sick and tired of getting hurt and always hearing that she didn’t mean it. I feel like she does things on purpose to make me feel worse so she’s happy. Which I try to believe isn’t true. I don’t know there’s so many things. She didn’t even feel bad about today... said sorry because she had to. I don’t know what do to, I don’t want to be her second choice every time a different boy shows up (that’s a lot) where I always was there for her. I feel worthless, she makes me feel bad about myself. Worst thing is that I don’t have other friends because she kept me away from people. It’s totally too late for me to make friends at college everyone has their friend groups already and I’m very shy. I don’t know what to do, I’ve been crying for ages and it’s not the first time I’m crying because of this, not the first time I wanted to end this friendship but it’s so hard. My mum absolutely hates her now and always told me it’s a toxic friendship because she’s jealous of me and feel bad about herself around me and tries to portray me as a bad person to other people. Even her own my warned me about her, that she doesn’t deserve a friend like me and she will do things like this. I absolutely love her mum. Has anyone been i a similar situation? How to get through this it’s seems impossible... advice please :C