They have treated me to takeaway food twice and I've wasted it. I wasted it on my brothers birthday meal a few days ago, now today I have wasted a chippy they bought me for lunch because I am depressed pretty bad now. I have not been diagnosed but I have been miserable for 10 months atleast now.
The other day we were eating, my family shouted me to come downstairs for dinner which was take away they got delivered and I took 1 bite then said I can't manage it then I my brother said just have it and I said I can't then my dad came in and shouted at me then I just went back up to my room.
Today my dad wanted me to come to do the weekly shop to help him, I said no and refused to get out of bed so in the end he took my brother instead. They came home with some with chips and a sausage kindly which I came down for but I yet again had no appetite so took one bite and said I don't want it then I walked off back to my room, my dad said my name but I ignored him and just went off. I hear from the stairs my brother call me a ****ing idiot to our parents then my mum told my dad and brother why do they bother getting food because I have wasted it. I also walked passed my brothers room and he told me to go away because he has no respect for me anymore. I have not spoken to any of my family since my brother said that. I've already lost my brother, he normally comes to my room to talk to me, im losing my other family as well, they have not made me any dinner.
When my brother and dad went to the shop I got out of bed after they went, I was going actually go to the gp but I got up and stepped out of bed then realised wtf am I doing and immediately changed my mind about going to the gp. I don't have the courage at all to go to the gp, I don’t have the courage to speak on the phone because my famliy will just hear me and think who am I talking to then laugh when they find out I am talking to a gp.