Hi
@the_pharaoh - I believe you misunderstood this post, apologies. I'm not asking for advice with what to do with my BF since that's already been dealt with. I'm more so asking for advice and ways to build up esteem and confidence in my breasts/body again so I can go back to having a normal relationship with him. Thanks for your help though. (:
@EU Yakov - Oh, yeah he knows. We were showering and I brought it up, and I explained the history behind my insecurity and how bad it hurt. My fella's quite insecure about his **** size since he just about reaches 6in, so I basically told him, "it's kinda like if I constantly poked at your **** size", and he seemed to understand. (Don't worry, I didn't make a small **** joke or something as petty as that, I just made that comparison so he understood it better and from a male perspective rather than a female one, since boobs aren't on his list of insecurities lmao). While he may not fully appreciate just how upset I am, he does seem apologetic.
What annoys me though is how he keeps trying to instigate. He said that he likes my boobs and that they're "perfect for me [him]" but to me, that just felt like he was saying it out of obligation to try and make me feel better- which I appreciate, but it just made me feel worse. But I am hoping that time, and dressing in clothes I like, will tone down this insecurity enough in a few weeks.
I'm not entirely blaming him, but it's like -- despite him never fully saying his **** size is an insecurity, I know that media perpetuates a big **** stereotype, so I know not to make penis jokes around him, out of consideration. Kinda wish he had that foresight, but I'm glad he's at least stopped.
I just feel really, really unattractive and not feminine. It's different when it's your partner that makes you feel this way.