Okay, so I'm bisexual. At twenty, I'm pretty much certain about this. I like girls, I like boys. Thing is, I haven't really done anything with either. I've had girlfriends, but haven't done much with them sexually. I'm also not out to anyone, I've been working my way towards it but wanted to experience more before I was comfortable, and completely sure. What's the point in telling people if I get to a sexual situation and discover... oh dear, I AM STRAIGHT. I'm not, but still.
Anyway, dull first paragraph over, I decided I wanted to try stuff with a guy. Had these feelings for five years or so, just needed to act on them. I've been on this website (some disgusting dirty old perverts, but also surprisingly a lot of nice, young, well-adjusted folks) .. and I started talking to a lad who lived near me (and actually goes to same Uni, although never met) and anyway, last weekend we eventually met up after months of texting and drunken phone calls (nothing dirty). Yes, made sure it was all safe, yadda.
I like him. I think he likes me, we're still texting so that's a good sign. My problem is being so nervous about possibly taking things further, and also if that does happen, letting people know. Now, I'm in no rush in telling my parents anything, but if I did get with this guy, I think it would be hard to hide from my friends, and I wouldn't want to hide it anyway, I'm not ashamed. This is all hypothetical of course, he probably thinks I'm a right tit.
Another concern is.. if *stuff* happened with this lad, that's great, but then I haven't done certain *stuff* with a girl... I worry it would be like quenching my thirst for one thing, but perhaps not for another. Oh I dunno, in a bit of a mess at the moment, in flux I suppose, not knowing what's going to happen. I just needed to get this off my chest I guess. Any thoughts? Advice? Abuse? Please, all welcome! Especially the abuse.