Do you think its too late for me? Am I a freak now? I feel like it will be hard now to find someone..girls my age have had relationships and are probably looking for something more long term. I haven't even experienced a short relationship and I don't feel like I am ready to get married or commit long term. I feel like I still have a lot of growing up to do and things to achieve personally (I'm happy with my career though).. I don't want to get married when I'm past 32 though..I need to basically 'catch up' to all the other girls in my age range.
I feel like a child still..not because I'm immature (I'm not), but because I haven't experienced anything! I don't feel like a woman. I feel like a teenager still lol. I'm definitely emotionally stunted due to this.
It seems all so confusing and weird..is it too late now? Have I missed the boat? I feel weird being a virgin. I wish I wasn't! I know I don't want to lose it to a random guy from a club, so in order to lose it I'd have to find a guy I like who likes me back and is interested in being in a relationship with me..that seems hard..for it to work out so perfectly..you know: I like him, he likes me..and someone actually does something about it!
So..what are your thoughts? Is it too late? I mean there is currently no guy interested in me right now. I did go to a club last week..I was friendly, chatted a bit, but that was it. I don't like the atmosphere and would hate to continue going to such places to 'meet a guy'. I also think those types of guys aren't for me really. I always knew I hated clubbing but gave it another chance and I am sure it is not the place for me now. I wouldn't mind going just to improve my social skills but not for anything else.
I recently completed my PhD and am looking for a job. I'm not likely to meet a guy there.
I have no friends right now and when I had a few who drifted away from me, they had no guy friends, so I have no way of meeting guys through my friends..
So what does that leave me with? Where do I go from here? How do I change things?
This isn't about learning how to be more social, confident, etc. It's more an issue of the technical aspect of dating/relationships..how am I to find someone decent to date and experience things with? Where do I find that person? I hate being this way.
Thanks..