I have a similar problem, solo is ok, me controlling rhythm and on top nut comes ok. But no way Jose will I hold still and let her take me off, that is way too crazy, way too much. That would mean she would and she could and I it would become my highest joy, highest joy tied to her, that is the problem, but two times in has been done to me as I unwittingly discovered that some very talented and good girls know the way, they are always on my mind, Thanks,you know who you are, and funny thing is a regular gf has not a chance, because my mind automatically puts up too much defenses. The talented girls were both absolutely certain that they could do this, they knew in advance. Oh, I forgot to ask them what they did, how there magic works. I do know that they got under my defenses by coming in quickly. I had that I'm on the run feeling before I gave in within in a minute, crazy stuff.