I have been wearing the hijab since I became of age (13), however, I am now 15. Since I was a child I was also told to wear the hijab since it is OBLIGATORY. Though, I did feel like I was proud to wear it for a few, in the end it sort of felt like it was forced on me. Not that I was ever verbally forced to wear it, but since my mom and almost every family member wore it, well damn that means I'd have to as well. My grandmother always praised me for wearing it because one of my cousins never wanted to wear it. Having all this support from family members did make me feel loved and happy, but I never felt true to myself. As we all know the stupid stereotype that "All hijab's are good Muslims" comes from ones bias culture, we can all say that we know this is not true. I mean as of now I am hijabi but god damn I ain't the best hijabi of them all lol. I've been going to an Islamic school my whole life and I know Islam inside out. God, I'd feel like such a failure to my family and religion if I took it off. Even when I started to wear it, I sort of just wore it because "I had to", I didn't even do the simple things like prayer, reading the quran and so on, so what was the point? All I am doing is proving people in public that I am Muslim but I wasn't even achieving the basics. I know for a fact that if I took it off I'd be shamed by my family members. No matter how "westernized" we are, my family would still find a way to throw some sort of shade at me lol. And a part from me not wanting to wear a hijab is also the fact that I can't wear anything I like. Even if a little bit of my neck shows, my mom penalizes me for it. It hurts to see my other friends look absolutely stunning in their fits while I look well, not so cute. Help a girl out, what do I do?