I understand that, but the issue is that that is not something you can fix or help her with, because in this respect you literally are the problem. She has said several times now that even if she does want to speak to you, she feels like she shouldn't be or that she is not ready to, and her feelings are sufficiently strong in that regard that she has cut contact off on a couple of occasions. Indeed the only reason that you spoke again the most recent time is because you messaged her, drunk, and against her wishes. The end result of that was her deleting you on Snapchat. I know it hurts, and it will take time to get over that, but you also need to respect her position on this, which is not only pretty clear, but is one that she has repeated several times.