I've had a really rough time lately and I need someone to talk to.
A few months ago my girlfriend of 2 years left me, we were completely head over heels in love and I was sure that she was the girl I wanted to be with forever. Then one day she told me she wasn't happy and she didn't love me anymore and needed time apart. She told me that she didn't want to be in a relationship at the moment. I didn't take this well and spent weeks in bed unable to eat or sleep, all I ever thought about was her. I contemplated suicide many times. My friends weren't sympathetic at all and pretty much just told me to get over it. One friend who I had recently become close to, and I considered my best friend, was particularly harsh about it.
I managed to make it through that month, just. And then uni started, this was a huge help for me. An opportunity to start fresh and make a group of real friends, which I achieved, but I still thought about her every day and longed to be back together again.
Yesterday I discovered that my now ex girlfriend is dating the friend who I had considered to be my best friend. When I got angry about it she accused me of not wanting her to be happy. I still love her with all my heart. She was my first and only kiss and I was hers. Now every time I close my eyes I see him touching her her and kissing her and her loving him back. I haven't eaten or slept since I found out.
I have no one to talk to as I feel that all my friends have betrayed me by allowing this to happen without me knowing. I've cut off contact with everyone I knew back home. The worst thing is that he is in uni too, and she thinks that their relationship can work. If she was feeling lonely why couldn't she come back to me?
I don't know anyone who's been in a similar situation that I can talk to about this. We were together for so long and have so many memories, how could she do this to me?