guys.
basically i met the love of my life like 3 years ago, we were together for a year, he was the first and olny guy i have loved and my only proper relationship.
we broke up 2 years ago, i have dated a few guys since non seriously, but still only love this guy. he was much older than me in his 40s and i was 21 when we met so he said i needed more life experience first to become more interesting and time to grow up to become more mature, and that i didnt really know what i was saying if i wanted to marry him.
still now 2 years later, i still only love him and im hoping to get back with him but i am soooo disgusted by his sexual history. im a virgin and no sex before amriiage. but even if we were married i would keep wanting to cheat, not because im unfaithful but because he slept around so much before we were married that i would find it hard to truly respect him and just feel so disgusted.
he was a major player all his life, he was married once when he was 34 which lasted a year, his wife apparanly cheated on him so he cheated on her then the marriage broke up ending with him moving in with the woman he was cheating with. he also has had a few threesomes and foursomes and ONS, and being 40+ y/o he has had A LOT o partners. the reason we broke up is because he had never had a threesome with 2 girls before, and he met this bisexual homeless skanky gal he moved her in with him a week after they met and have a semi open relationship where she can bring home girls for him. im not into that.
he is the type of guy that has fun with slutty easy gals, but wants to marry a really conservative girl. he said when he finishes with the skanky gal we can get back together and may get married. i love him but am soooo disgusted with his past, and the type of girls he was with. many of them were the not very attractive really slutty bar-types that hang about half naked in clubs sleeping with whoever approaches them. whereas im attractive, classy and intelligent and nothing like those girls.
im also jealous that he is now 45, and wasted his youth sleeping about with skanks and having fun, but expects to marry a conservative reliable girl like me to have babies with and care for him in his old age. why should i get the leftovers? i love him and wanted to enjoy his youth with him?
do any other girls feel the same about man-whores or much older dudes? how can i get over this since i really love him?
EDIT: please do not use my thread to go on about how religion/waiting until marriage/Jesus are bad ideads. this is not relavent, make your own thread.
also, there is a difference between a guy sleeping with girls selectively and responsibly in a relationship, and a man whore who leaps into bed with man/woman/man and woman. ewww.
ther former is ok, the latter is gross.