I could really use advice on this please, I'll try and keep this short and give the basics.
I have been in a relationship with my partner for 8 years.
He's had bad relationships in the past, therefore has insecurities, and I was abused in the past, so my trust waivers easily. But we both love each other very much.
However, everything has been great until recently.
Basically, he has said the name of his housemate twice during sex. He said he doesn't remember (and he hates his housemate atm) so I let it slide because brain farts and stuff, it happens.
I found that he has been going on indecent chat rooms, he apologised.
His house mate has been inappropriate with him in front of me, for example, saying how much she wants to **** him, taking him from me, sitting on him, and grinding into his lap, but he doesn't see this as wrong. He apologised.
He met his ex recently and thought that I thought he was going to jump into her arms and tell her that he still loves her, which I didn't, as I know she was horrible to him.
He recently made a video of us without me knowing. Then, I invited him to an open day our sport team was having, only to tell me he went to jerk off watching said video instead of helping out.
That hurt because I don't invite people to events, I don't even play my violin in front of my mum as I'm so embarrassed of ****ing up.
He apologised, but I'm finding it really hard to move on from this.
He keeps asking if I'm going to break up with him or why I'm still with him. I know he's insecure at times and I try so hard to reassure him I'm going nowhere.
I also have depression, so sometimes, it can hard, as I worry about burdening him. But my depression makes me forget the love I have for close people like family and friends, and my boyfriend. So recently after all this, it's been harder for me to see the love I have for him.
I do love him, and I know he loves me. But how can I move on from this? Am I over reacting?