i’m toxic

How old are you and what do you do, work or study?

What are you lacking in your life that other people have and which makes you jealous?

this is what gps are for my friend.

I'll give you some advice in a bit. I'm just gonna finish doing some revision then head off to the gym for a bit

Just a word correction

The word you wanted to use was envious - not jealous. Envy is about something someone else has and you dont. Jealousy is about sth you have. Ex. You can be jealous when someone is flirting with your partner. You can be envious when your neighbour could afford a better car than you.

Also i love how the op calls himself toxic and the next post i read is about cursing people and ruining their lives. This comparison is just hilarious

I mean i don’t think i curse or ruin their life. Like i said, i keep these feelings to myself and I know they’re wrong. I didn’t really know how to word it, whether it’s classed as ‘toxic’ or not so I appreciate the previous word correction too. But glad at least someone’s getting entertained lol, there’s a positive for everything I guess.

I meant to say you arent doing harm to anybody actually activly thinking about not sabotaging anyone and calling yourself toxic meanwhile the true toxic person just casually asks what is the best way to ruin someones life because they have people they want to do that to.

OH SORRY, i thought you were coming for me whoops😭😭😭. I mean yeah i’m glad that i realise it’s wrong but even though it’s not harming anyone, it’s affecting me and my friendships (well from my side anyways).

anyways have a good day, thanks for clearing that up

Not a trait anyone wants to have. Whenever i see people doing good things or succeeding, it makes me very angry, like to the point my blood boils. I don’t understand why I’m like this and I don’t want to be. Obviously I’d never sabotage anyone or throw around hate just because of this jealousy, I try to suppress these feelings and congratulate the person but it really is affecting me. I gatekeep any good opportunities i find to myself but on the rare occasion i tell someone, they end up spreading it explicitly after i told them not to which makes me gatekeep even more. Why am i this negative and how can i overcome this?
Like it could be anything. If someone has started revision or exercising or is allowed to go out to nice
places i literally can’t look at my phone no more. I thought if i deleted social media this issue would be solved but i guess not.

You are a good person op. You do what is in your power to be one. Stay strong 💕

same ❤️