An economic's students 2nd year (GYG 2018-19)
Degree of anonymity:
Call me T. I think it's best I retain an element of anonymity on TSR (meaning I won't be posting any picture with my face in it) nor disclosing something that might be identifying...
Why? The internet (and TSR) is a place where once you post something, it's out there (potentially) forever, in the hands of who knows who. Plus, I have said a few controversial things on TSR which employers might not be so eager to hear about if linked to me. I keep it black and white, but would not describe myself as a keyboard warrior. In real life, you generally have to think more before speaking
How I got here?
Born and raised in the UK, a child of immigrants I have British nationality formally. But I still have loyalty to my country of ethnicity- India. I don't consider myself a typical Indian, yet I also don't consider myself a typical Brit. I am a mixture of my experiences and as economics has taught me so far... be rational.
This is why you might often see me on TSR saying one thing, and then changing my mind later! My opinion evolves, and I think that is a positive character trait.
Anyway, I've been through all the "years", done my GCSE's and A-Levels (and received good grades... I've disclosed them sporadically over TSR, but I don't feel it too relevant to post it here, although if asked, I might). Everyone has their own standards and goals, so I don't want to put pressure on anyone.
Anyway, I received a conditional offer for Queen Mary's University London (QMUL) on which I needed AAA in my three A-Levels (Maths, Economics and Government and Politics). I (got the grades and...) enrolled in 2017 to Bsc Economics which is a 3 year course.
First year was tough and lonely at times. I wasn't sure how I felt at times, and the drastic transition from A-Levels to University arguably hit me hard. I would not say I went through depression, but I definitely was not feeling my best.
Strikes by lecturers which caused lectures and classes to go "balls-up" affected me badly, and my attendance and general motivation went down. The main factor which kept me going was my timetable, and when that was messed up... I suppose, I became even lazier!
QMUL had offered me a semi-scholarship for getting good grades at A-Levels (which required A*AA), and I had got that. So for first year, I received that money. However, to keep it on... I needed a first in first year.
Sadly, through my own fault (most likely) and partly attributable to the university (my own opinion), I failed to make the grade narrowly.
I averaged out 69.3. I was very upset to feel so close, yet of course be so far. My parents were not pleased with my performance for 1st year either, which was fair enough.
Since I received my results for first year (in July 2018), I've been thinking a lot about how I will make 2nd year good.
I know a lot more about myself now, and what I need to do, so I feel ready to pick myself up again. I am making this "blog" for all the people who've had failure and need a reason to believe they are far more than that. I am making it for myself, to enable time for reflection every day, and perhaps encourage myself to do more revision. I also make it for prospective QMUL and general Economics students who will see a taste of what my university experience is like.
I have an older sister and in term time I am allowed to stay with her as it is closer to the university (about 40 mins journey). This is compared to my commute from home which would be almost double (1 hour 15 mins) and costs more.
As I've said above, I will really really do my best to post every day, before the clock strikes 12! That might mean I'm making an entry at 23:59, but like I've said above... discipline is important to me, and it's something I need to constantly focus on.
Note: I'm not an expert at TSR (and don't intend to be), so I'm afraid you won't be getting many fancy colours. However, saying that, I am generally good with technology so I might be posting a picture here or there
I didn't have much communication in private with any of my lecturers for first year. I just felt like I didn't have anything worthy enough to ask them. I felt like me asking a 1st year maths problem to a maths lecturer with a Masters was the equivalent of a child asking me what's 5x5. The lecturer would see it as ridiculously easy, and I'd look like a fool.
However, today, I spoke to the maths lecturer (of which I didn't do too well in his modules in first year), and he told me... "You have to try". And, that made perfect sense. You don't ask, you don't get. He also said actually "The worse I can say is I don't know". So that's that. I'm going to try... for me. At the end of the day, it's my future at stake!
GYG means grow your grade, and to make it clear, I am definitely hoping to grow my grades into a solid 1st class by the end of the second year. I believe I have the ability, so I just need to put into place a solid plan of action. And, you'll be able to see that plan here...
Following this thread :
I might be able to figure out that whole tagging people whenever I have a post (which is daily fyi), so let me know if you would like to follow. For now, make sure to follow the thread, or bookmark this page.
Thank you for reading and best of luck to whoever is reading.
I'll re-iterate what that teacher said to me... "You have to try".