Ask yourself are you Muslim because you want to be and you believe in Islam or are you "Muslim" because you were raised that way. The fact that you are not aware of the teachings of Islam on gayness (The Qur'an and the Hadeeths) means that you don't follow your religion closely and you are for the while confused and in the liminal stage of reconciling what you know and feel with what you have been thought.
As a GAY - "HINDU"- LAST SON- INDIAN ETHNICITY- FROM THIRD WORLD HOMOPHOBIC TRINIDAD AND TOBAGO, with all the brown family expectations riding on me - wait until you go to uni. You will feel much freer and more comfortable there.
Next do not come out to your friends, no way no how, they sound like a set of douche bags, interestingly I am in Toronto studying right now and many of my Muslim friends from Iran, Lebanon, Iraq, Pakistan, India, Jordan and Saudi who were born there are gay and have come to reconcile both religion and their sexuality so there is a lot of hope and there is a way if you so wish to keep the two.
Next you are probably gay, being gay does not equal blindness, gay men regard girls as hot all the time, we dance with them, balh balh on the odd case of being totally out of it we may even sleep wid one but that does not change the fact we are gay.
There is a lot of hope guy, don't worry over the angst, please don't kill yourself and remember your parents cannot control you forever when you become an adult and have your own money you can do as you please.