I was a bitch. He dumped me. Is there anything I can do now to get him back? :(

I was with my boyfriend for a year in a long-distance thing. We used to have a good, sort of regular fortnightly sexual activity. Then for the following 10-11 months, our contact become much much less and infrequent but we were still together and I gave him no bj, no hj, no sex. I guess not intentionally because I had things going on in my life and my drive was getting reduced by (personal, he never caused it) sadness but partly intentional. So almost a year later when I could see him more regularly, I carried on still not giving him sexual activity (I was still sad in regards to my home life but I could get out more for uni, etc, but I guess that's no excuse), so I broke my promise of going on the pill and one day he just said i've understood for long enough, I loved you but I don't seem to be making you any better, you don't need a boyfriend, and left. I know I didn't satisfy him enough anyway, and certainly not sexually, no where near sexually, poor guy, only now do I finally understand what he gave up for me, staying with me and supporting me through all of that, and I gave him nothing. I felt like I couldn't, but I just didn't. He was right to leave me, but is there anything I can do to get him back? He loved me so much and I love him too and i've only now realised how much and how hard I made things for him now that he's gone. Help me please

Tough, you had the chance, didn't use it widely and so you lost it.

Tough, you had the chance, didn't use it widely and so you lost it.

I was with my boyfriend for a year in a long-distance thing. We used to have a good, sort of regular fortnightly sexual activity. Then for the following 10-11 months, our contact become much much less and infrequent but we were still together and I gave him no bj, no hj, no sex. I guess not intentionally because I had things going on in my life and my drive was getting reduced by (personal, he never caused it) sadness but partly intentional. So almost a year later when I could see him more regularly, I carried on still not giving him sexual activity (I was still sad in regards to my home life but I could get out more for uni, etc, but I guess that's no excuse), so I broke my promise of going on the pill and one day he just said i've understood for long enough, I loved you but I don't seem to be making you any better, you don't need a boyfriend, and left. I know I didn't satisfy him enough anyway, and certainly not sexually, no where near sexually, poor guy, only now do I finally understand what he gave up for me, staying with me and supporting me through all of that, and I gave him nothing. I felt like I couldn't, but I just didn't. He was right to leave me, but is there anything I can do to get him back? He loved me so much and I love him too and i've only now realised how much and how hard I made things for him now that he's gone. Help me please

I think that just probably translates to "I've understood for long enough now, not getting enough sex and I've found someone else who will satisfy me and not be a bitch. Going to get some now, bye".

Boys need sex, yo. You've been withholding it.

I'm an idiot. People like that aren't going to come around again are they? And here I was being too cautious to jump in with 2 feet and trust him that he'd save me and look after me and even though taking the pill was the right thing because he wanted me to, and inside I did too, I didn't. I'm the reason for my own loss. I made my bed, better go lie in it. Thanks for the reply

Shall I sleep with him from now as regularly as I can then? Not just that, do more as a girlfriend to be appreciative? Will he listen and be with me or say how many more chances do I need to give you? How many times will you say that? When will all this magical balance come in? I'm scared it's guna be the latter