I am getting to a point in life where I am wondering if I will ever have friends and what makes it worse is that I can't see what I am doing wrong or why people don't like me.
Without sounding shallow I can see why certain people don't have friends with it being due to having poor hygiene or being really quiet etc or being too desperate and putting people off that way, but to me I can't see any red flags that stick out so it's very frustrating.
What's most frustrating is that the only advice I ever get is that my time will come or I am told that for my life journey I am meant to be alone and shouldn't be upset about it or that I should find a good book to read, according to some I am to just accept things as they are and be happy and that I am over complicating the situation.
I don't see it as over complicating the situation as I am now 24 and my time doesn't seem to be coming anytime soon. I didn't go to University that could have been a place where I made friends, it's where most people do but besides that I've tried joining clubs etc and nothing seems to work.
It's the same with dating, I never seem to be anybody's type, well except for 50+ year old men and men that don't look after themselves / aren't my type ( are really over weight) which knocks my confidence so much. Besides that no one else messaged me so I gave up on that too, after seven years of trying. And when I have been in friend circles for a short period of time they will always try and set me up with someone that just isn't my type at all and I know looks aren't everything but it will always be with someone I am not attracted to and it makes me think how bad do I actually look, it makes me think am I delusional, I know I am no model but it makes me think I could be delusional and everyone else see's something else.
I try to remain as positive as possible because I don't want to stir people away by looking like a negative person, regardless of my smiles and me being positive throughout my loneliness nothing seems to be happening. Every year I have that day where I feel seriously depressed and post something like this, to which I know probably won't solve the problem but it beats doing nothing.
I just don't know what to do anymore and I feel the older I get the less of a chance I have of making friends. When I would go on holidays as a late teen I never had any trouble what so ever in making friends, I would always be the most popular person of the group but at home in my city people avoid me like the plague and I just don't understand. I've tried reaching out to people I've met on holidays in previous years but it never leads anywhere so I've stopped doing that also.
I just feel nobody is wanting to give me a chance for some reason and it's very frustrating.