Hi! Sorry for the late reply there.
Things are alright, I suppose. The just friends thing didn't really work out - a couple of weeks ago we got drunk at a party and ended up making out (funny how things come full circle), so we tried to distance ourselves a bit more but that's also been really hard! He wasn't just my boyfriend, but also my best friend, and that's probably what I miss most.
I've been doing quite well, family situation has improved, I'm going through the application process for a music course in Norway that seems incredible, if I don't get in I've got a place in uni here in Scotland (if I get the grades that is, but revision has been going well), I've made new pals at school - we're not that close but we've finished school anyway so whatever?
So yeah, everything's good... for me at least. I'm not sure how he's doing. He didn't get with his best friend, surprised me a wee bit but I suppose he really doesn't fancy her then... He's more quiet, I think things are rather awkward in his friend group since the whole situation with his best friend, but overall he seems fine. Sometimes he just looks... sad? I'm not sure what it is, but he'll be staring into space, seemingly disconnected from the world... I don't know - it's probably nothing.
Rather uneventful update this one, I think this is pretty much our closure. I'd like to be friends one day, or maybe more (after all this time I still really fancy him, love him even), but we'll see where it goes.
I'm sad this story doesn't come with a happy ending, before writing this I spent some time looking back on my earlier posts... all the ones where I'm saying we'll be together for a long time... that saddens me. Still, thanks a lot to everyone who's helped me along the way! I've definitely changed a lot (in a good way) over the course of this thread and that's important, I've become a much much better person I think! I feel like he's doing worse though, but there's probably not much I can do...